I almost died... but i am back now!

[ct ertz]

Wow. Its been a long while. Sorry to leave for so long. I am reading all the posts on these past projects and will get answers as I can. First let me just say that although I have all of my projects on a heard drive and I did recover my pass word, I have limited access to an actual computer. My pone is the only thing keeping me connected to the world at large right now!

As many of you know, I had a sucky go around with cancer. This sucked and chemo sucked and eventually my attitude sucked and everything spiraled down the toilet. When I did have good days I worked on my historic clothing in an attempt to shore up our finances. Only the love of God and my family kept me from doing something really stupid. If you have been there you know what I mean.

Well after much trial and error the Doctors came up with some pills that slowly, and painfully, began to reclaim my body from the cancer. By then the only thing I was doing was sitting around on Face Book and not doing much else. But slowly I began to be more active. But life still wasn't what it should be. Then my Grandmother died. My great aunt died. and my computer died. and what I didn't know, I was close to following them..

The original strong intravenous chemo that didn't work on the cancer did damage my heart. So on 11-11-2016 I had a heart attack at 45 years old. I nearly died on my living room floor. This was followed by a "cabbage". That's doctors code for full open heart surgery. Five coronary bypasses.

All this caused me to reevaluate my life. My friends. My family.

Now, instead of locking my brain away arguing with people over stupid stuff on face book or sitting around feeling sorry for myself eating doughnuts and doing nothing else, I have been getting back into the world. I still do face book. I still do some custom sewing. But I also walk 3 miles a day with my wife, eat good, and enjoy life.

I haven't touched Gimp or Sketch Up since like October 2015 haven't built a paper model in ever. Its been a long time. But I intend for that to change. I like modeling. And I am all about finding my joy these days.

So it is with a grateful rebuilt heart and a humble mind set that I ask you all to forgive my past petulance and whininess and help me move on to better things... like models!

I am back! Thank you guys!